I am struggling through this semester and feeling so incredibly unmotivated. I'm sick of reading and writingand thinking. I am done with the academic life.
It's not that the work is especially hard and challenging. It is, but my main problem is focus. Spring semesters are always hardest for me. The warm, sunny weather prompts me to go on long runs, go on vacations, go out with friends, gaze out the window and daydream about my future, get birthday turnt--things not conducive to my study habits.
I actually failed a paper I turned in last week. Seriously. Failed. Like 7/20 points. My professor sent it back to me and told me to re-write and re-submit for a chance at a better grade. I know he was probably reading through it going wtf? I re-read it and went WTF--I submitted this? #whalefail I knew it was bad when I turned it in but I was hoping to get a pass. Not even.
I need to get through this month, and that failed paper was the wake-up call I needed to get me going. So here I go. I will not be defeated and I think I can even still manage a 4.0.
Wish me luck.
Hugs and kisses peeps,
Bethany
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