No Fake Friends

Last Spring I was introduced to Baltimore author C. JoyBell C. She read a quote from one of her books

and it blew me away. I was at a crossroad and it helped motivate me to do better, to be better--to be the purest form of myself, to face my badness and sin and do something about it. I've made a lot of big girl decisions in the past year and I'm so proud of myself. The road ahead looks bright and sunny and open. I realized there are times to be beautiful and lovely and nice, and there are times to be a cold-hearted beast. Choose wisely.

C. JoyBell C.:

“The difference between my darkness and your darkness is that I can look at my own badness in the face and accept its existence while you are busy covering your mirror with a white linen sheet. The difference between my sins and your sins is that when I sin I know I'm sinning while you have actually fallen prey to your own fabricated illusions. I am a siren, a mermaid; I know that I am beautiful while basking on the ocean's waves and I know that I can eat flesh and bones at the bottom of the sea. You are a white witch, a wizard; your spells are manipulations and your cauldron from hell yet you wrap yourself in white and wear a silver wig.”

White witches and wizards, sirens and mermaids? I know--it's out there and C JoyBell C. is a lot freaky, but she kinda nailed that quote. No fake Bethany and no fake friends--be true to yourself, be a better friend, and have better friends. So simple.

Keep singing Drake, continue  empire building, and have a crew you actually want along for the ride. "Started from the bottom, now I'm here. Started from the bottom, now my whole crew here." Ayy.